the me.

2006-07-06T21:07:00.000+08:00

i will rem you. will u rem me?

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2006-07-01T00:19:00.000+08:00

on board the hot air balloon :)

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2006-04-29T16:08:00.000+08:00

yes im the bdae girl, cum e clown of the day

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2006-03-09T00:13:00.000+08:00

jus back from bkk 2 daes ago
all was fine
got myself tattoo-ed again

this will be my last post here.

new address will be avail on my friendster profile once im done.

2006-02-26T18:26:00.000+08:00

where did you sleep last night?

just came back from work not long ago
whole body feels weird
guess its becos i haven been trainin for more than a week

ankle have not fully recovered
will still go for training tml though
i want to vent my anger.
not on the sandbag this time
on the girl instead.

2006-02-22T16:07:00.000+08:00

2 bitches, one butch

2006-02-22T16:05:00.000+08:00

lena ray chang

2006-02-22T16:03:00.000+08:00

ok its blurred..after one whole dae my limbs are aching

2006-02-22T16:02:00.000+08:00

smelling good

2006-02-22T14:37:00.000+08:00

lena tan is a lobster
ho ho ho
well
no pls take care
apply lots of lotion all right

yest was great
we had an army of food
but well with lena and sharon around
no problem at all.

the sun yest was good
drizzled for awhile but all went well
so good that lena CANT go for training today

shall hit the gym by myself ltr.

i guess u have made up yr mind
sorry that u lost yr hp
but it was made clear abt how u felt

how does one feel when they lose their phone
"i cant rem my gf's number la"
"kel kel kel"

dont take the initiative to call others?
i beg to differ.

2006-02-20T19:18:00.000+08:00

i swear i will take revenge.

2006-02-20T19:16:00.000+08:00

thoughts..

2006-02-20T15:50:00.000+08:00

i am in a terrible bad mood now
so if u guys have nothin better to do
or say
nothing intelligent or helpful
what i suggest u to do is to just
f-u-c-k off

got a C for imc.
failed the class quiz for it
what can be worse.
i did fucking study for it all right

distractions?
i dunno.

i am really not the one

i am not one tt is tolerant enough to take all this
i am not one that can spoon feed u with answers in e nick of the time
i am not one that can believe u can do it when u dun even prove yrself
i am not one that spends all the time in the world with my partner

i am one that is short tempered
i am one that believes you reap what u sow
i am one that believes in diligence
i am one will not sympathize with you when u are at fault
i am one that believes in punctuality
i am one that takes yr words seriously

i want one that has visions of what she wants
i want one that works towards their dreams, not a dreamer
i want one that is diligent, not afraid of hardships

i dont want someone that is only good with words
the one you want is somewhere out there.

i am just ranting
feeling really lousy inside
about everything

passerby

the last thing i need is someone to phone me up
asking if im fine and all
so people please
save that up.
thankyouverymuch

2006-02-19T17:30:00.000+08:00

spraine my ankle on mondae
have been limping since then
i swear i will never go easy and give others a chance anymore
cant even feel my ankle the next mornin

wait till i get back on the ring
i will not let any chances of attacking go wasted.
watch it.

just came bk from work
thought that since im not workin tml
cld go to try
jus to skip on my toes.
f-a-i-l-e-d

will jus wait till wed.
pissed.

i cant gym right now
i cant wake board
i cant thai box
i cant even walk
its really pissing me off.

2006-02-14T16:12:00.000+08:00

And then I met someone
and thought she could replace you
we got a long just fine
we wasted time because she was not you
we had a lot of fun
though we knew we were faking
love was not impressed with our connection they were all lies,
all lies
so I'm here cause I found this one thing is true
that I'm nothing without you
I know better now
and I've had a change of heart
I'd rather have bad times with you, than good times with someone
else
I'd rather be beside you in a storm, than safe and warm by
myself
I'd rather have hard times together, than to have it easy apart
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart
who holds my heart
I can't blame you if you turn away from me, like I've done you,
I can only prove the things I say with time,
please be mine,
I'd rather have bad times with (please be mine) you,
than good times with someone else (I know)
I'd rather be beside you in a storm (anytime),
than safe and warm by myself (so sure baby)
I'd rather have hard times to gether,
than to have it easy apart
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart (my heart)
I'd rather have bad times with you (surely),
than good times with someone else (surely)
I'd rather be beside you in a storm (oh yeah),
than safe and warm by myself (all by myself)
I'd rather have hard times together,
than to have it easy apart I'd rather have the one who holds my heart

i rather

2006-02-14T16:00:00.000+08:00

hapy valentines day people

nickelback-photograph

2006-02-12T15:52:00.000+08:00

so the shits finally over.
there goes my poly days finally

its amazing isnt it.
time flies
which is good
still rem the daes where there were butterflies in my tummy
first dae of sch kinda crap
when i was 17
when i jus got to know ivy and all

before i know it.
im hitting the big 21.
sucks.

had a pleasant surprise yest.
bumped into yd at suntec.
was shocked to see her
talked for awhile leavin lena alone
haha
sorry la.

well thanks lena and ashley for always being there
accompanyin
listening
5566 and u noe wad.
haha
i appreciate it really
:)

im tired of everythin
close yr eyes
listen to yr heart
open up
sometimes its not the people ard you that are fucked up.
sometimes its not yr parents that are pissing u off.
its jus that they mean well
and u are not receptive to it
wanting things yr way all the time

sometimes i jus want to stay at hm
read a book
surf the net or somethin
i really dun see the point in headin town
on every other dates
watching endless movies and all
it just feels like a routine to me

thats why i sae its hard
we are different
our thinkin
mentality
the way we perceive things
our views

2006-02-07T15:04:00.000+08:00

try not sleeping for more than 30 hours

i can barely crawl home yest.
yes that was how tired i was
worse still.
i cldnt really get to slp as some pest kept calling
argh

3 presentations todae
one more to go later
one more tml
and im officially done

am not happy though
feel its rather screwed up this yr

its the first time i have a negative comment abt my presentation
but its true.
i shld have confidence in myself
stop relying on the blardy cards.

i should have faith in myself.

life has been pretty much stressed up
with never ending work
and i thank god as the sem is endin soon
finally

i jus wanna get loose
numb my senses every night

and i seriously wonder how entrep would be like.
the comments and the deadpan look tells it all
no i dun wanna be a yr 4 student.

and if i get debar becos of the debrief
i will so fuckin break her neck
while u were sleepin
we were doin

understanding.
the power of it all.

2006-02-04T11:48:00.000+08:00

fuck the blardy on and off internet connection
fuck the blardy editing i need to do
fuck its not even editing
fuck the re-doin we need to do
fuck the chunk of shit that i need to read
fuck the last min i lost all my info crap
fuck the no i dun rem u telling me shit
and above it all
fuck you

2006-02-02T01:00:00.000+08:00

i wish i can take it all away
pains and sufferings
leaving you with only the good, the nice and the sweet

2006-01-30T17:03:00.000+08:00

retail therapy
was really not enough
i got a pair of slippers
and both lena and ash have to jus harp tt it looks mud-dish
thanks

the mambo bag at a discounted price
thanks alot for yr help :)
i love it

and my ax jacket
mother and sister cant stop complaining
"WAD????? U ACTUALLY BOUGHT THIS CLOTH???"
yes
argh
me: "i didnt use yr card! its my money"
mum: "yes check yr bank acc, topped up again u think wad yr money never ending ah"
me: "Oooooohhh"

argh
the ax belt and the blardy mb wallet is hauntin me
argh argh

shoppin soon pls
i wan to change my wardrobe
first thing first
i need to put on weight
yes tough
but im determined.

4 meals a day!
gym!
anythin to hit 45
then 48
and in turn 55.
ho ho ho
ok 50 is good enough

mums bringing me to shop soon
overseas
jus me and her.
ha!

2006-01-30T16:32:00.000+08:00

come in
and read me like a book
read between the words
watches the truth and the words unfold
right in front of you

the real me
my real feelings
the exact thoughts that are runnin through my mind

not the materialistic me
not the ego me
not e brat that u r seeing now.

not the words and the conversations
that u will hear
the truth
the ugly truth
somethin u will not want to hear
somethin people will shun
something tt not e faint heart can tk
for people lk tt are not receptive
and they wont change

slyvester sim-shuo yi

fly me to the moon
let me play ard the stars
let me see what spring is like
in jupitar and mars

i wish u happiness
i wish u well
but most all
i wish u love

without you-mary j

2006-01-24T09:59:00.000+08:00

gone are..

my credit cards
my drivers license
my ic
my ez link
my photos
my 5 remaining sessions with jean yip card
my extra sim card
my precious wallet

argh

im cashless
cardless
identification-less
somebody
kill me pls.

2006-01-22T18:05:00.000+08:00

disappointment

i really dont know what to say
you said u will be there for me
you said u understand what i am going through
i beg to defer

people sending you to school
picking you up
doing things the way u want
helpin u with all yr work till u know nuts
is that the right way?
is that really love?

if the above is how u define love
yes
i cant do it

im worried.
worried for you.

u procrastinate
u get stressed up due to date lines
u know nuts
u feel helpless
why cant u take the time out to read through?
to understand?

can others help u in yr exams too?

i am over loaded
with work
with grp projs
with individual journals
with mid semesters test
i have no time

why cant u understand?
why cant u help yrself in yr work
instead of tellin me u need it by evening?

how many times can one help u

i really dont know what to say

god only help those that help themselves

2006-01-21T10:19:00.000+08:00

roller coaster built to crash

and i dont know what to blog.

less than a month to go.

hang on man.

and i know i can do it

for im ray cheng.

snore.

if u happen to be readin this

im jus a phone call away.

dun let e unhappy stuffs get u down

am hear to listen

pls tk gd care of yrself.

positive thoughts really help

things to buy:

nike training gloves

stinker balls for my stinky boxin gloves

my energy long sleeve

shoes.

nice differentiated tops

hmm sponsers pls?

got love songs inside my head

killing us away

fuck yeah

marilyn manson

2006-01-20T02:10:00.000+08:00

tears flowing down my cheeks
i passed it off as being stressed

found out somethin interesting fr ivy
haha
cant help laughin la
and no my head is swelling.

i miss my friends,
hope sch ends soon
reall soon

2006-01-17T18:56:00.000+08:00

i feel tired and saturated
the work load is jus heavy.
never ending work
piling up
indi journals comin out next
port folios.
mid sems.
grp report submission
argh.
its 7 and im still in sch.

jewel-hands

2006-01-16T17:01:00.000+08:00

i MISS U;

as much as u crave for seafood

and beer pls (:

2006-01-15T21:25:00.000+08:00

my lunch at marche with lena, tweet, and company. my art piece.

2006-01-15T21:24:00.000+08:00

sat morning. some talk.. i dunno what. really

2006-01-15T12:59:00.000+08:00

ray cheng has been decomposed.
beyond recognition.

yes im at work
and yes
im did not manage to slp much these daes
and therefore im cranky, bitchy, pms
whatever u call it.

to you:
i received yr friendster thingy today.
yes i do feel the same way as well
that was why i took the initiative to call u the other dae.
and to ask u out
i understand that u are busy.

no doubt its kinda sad looking at how things are right now
all i can say is that no matter what im doing with my life.
who i am with or whatever u name it,
you are someone special to me.

and that does that change.
i believe i told u before.
im glad that i get to know someone like you
and no i do not want our friendship to end up like that.

no matter how busy i am or perhaps
how long i did not call or contact you
that doesnt mean u are out of sight
out of mind.

messaged you jus now but u chose not to reply.
dunno whether u are still sleeping or wad.
hope you will get to read this.

2006-01-13T14:09:00.000+08:00

just woke up not long ago
had a series of very terrible dreams.

dreamt i was fighting
dreamt i was crying
and i really was.

tears soaked up my pillow
sipped into my ears
jus horrible.

i know what i want.
i am trying to bring out the best in me.
but are you willing to give it a try?

2006-01-13T00:21:00.000+08:00

frustrations and anger.
my thoughts spinning inside
merry go round
spin me more
and i'll puke.

stop.

i need a sandbag
i swear i fucking need a sandbag.

thai boxin was good yest.
minus off the big big bruise on my knee
and 20 secs of being whacked
sick i know
but it all felt good.

i need the pain
i need to numb myself.
i want to get away
i want the dragons tail

i cant kick my habit so soon
i need time.
i have been in it for a decade
no not the dragons tail.
yes.

u planned yr schedule
no time
yes i get it

i will head to BXG instead.
vent it all out
tire myself out
have my ice cold beer
and i will be fine
i know

emotions are kept inside
like a air tight bottle.
no air will escape.
not showin it does not mean i dun care
neither does it mean im not vulnerable

jab
cross
elbow
hook
kick
knee
push kick

i need to see blood.

2006-01-12T02:35:00.000+08:00

smoking?!!!!!
and why do u need to drink. GULP.

2006-01-11T15:00:00.000+08:00

class just ended
picture this
3 people in a small cubical smokin
full stop.

more editing to do
yup
sulks

i need to drink

2006-01-10T20:04:00.000+08:00

woke up so damn late today
slept for more than 12 hrs!
argh wasted so much time.

anyhows
sharon get well soon

jus finished doing imp2 and imc
those tt are assigned to me.

still have global to type in full
strategic and all
plus my portfolio
i swear i have no time to touch it
argh.
kill me kill me.

since that princess is not done with her hair yet
shall take this time to do some reading up

thai boxing tml
i swear im just gonna die there again.

never judge a movie by its actors.
god.

2006-01-08T14:22:00.000+08:00

I wasn't planning on it,
but I'm falling for you,
deep inside my heart,
I can feel that it's true...
You've made me a better person
in everything that I do...
words can't describe,
how much I'm in love with you.

=)

2006-01-08T10:20:00.000+08:00

warning-long post ahead.
am at work and i have nothin to do.
find it pretty accurate though
esp the last one.

Taurus, the second Sign of the Zodiac, is all about reward. Unlike the Aries love of the game, Taurus loves the rewards of the game. Think physical pleasures and material goods, for those born under this Sign revel in delicious excess. They are also a tactile lot, enjoying a tender, even sensual, touch. Taureans adore comfort and like being surrounded by pleasing, soothing things. Along these lines, they also favor a good meal and a fine wine. The good life in all its guises, whether it's the arts or art of their own making,is heaven on Earth to the Taurean-born.
It's the Bull that serves as the Taurean's mascot, and along with that comes the expectation that these folks are bull-headed and stubborn. Yes, they are. Hey, this Sign has a Fixed Quality attached to it after all, so expect that things will occasionally grind to a halt. That said, Taureans don't start out with the intention of getting stuck. They simply want to get things done, and it's that steady, dogged persistence that winds up being viewed as stubbornness. Bulls are actually among the most practical and reliable members of the Zodiac, and they are happy to plod along, as it were, in pursuit of their goals. The good news for Bulls is that once they get to the finish line, they'll swaddle themselves in material goods. A self-indulgent beast? Perhaps, but if you toiled as laboriously as these folks do, you'd need some goodies, too.

The Ox of Chinese Astrology is no bull in a china shop. Steadfast and solid, this powerful Sign is a born leader, being quite dependable and possessing an innate ability to achieve great things. Oxen tend to be plodding and methodical; they approach projects in the step-by-step manner that serves them best, and they never lose sight of their goal. They are tireless workers who are detail-oriented and believe in doing things right the first time.

The world may perceive Oxen as being far too serious or incapable of loosening up. This sturdy sort is less than social by nature and tends to become introverted in a crowd. To make things worse, they can't be bothered with what other people think and prefer to do what makes them feel best. Behind that calm facade, though, lives an Ox who can feel hurt, lonely and unable to connect with others. Friends and family are a great source of comfort to this beast, even if they don't always understand what makes the Ox tick. As a lover, friend, family member or housemate, the Ox makes a wonderfully strong, tender and affectionate companion who is protective and always reliable.

Out in the world, though, Oxen tend to be stubborn, dogmatic, my-way-or-the-highway kind of people who have no concept of when to back down. Oxen don't care to be pushed, especially since they think they're the good guys of the Chinese Zodiac. There is some truth to that theory, since the Ox is smart, trustworthy, caring and honorable. If you need honest, steady and unbiased advice, call on the Ox.

A good lesson for mighty Oxen is to strive to overcome a judgmental nature that keeps them from getting close to others. If they can learn to value their own good qualities, they'll have more room in their hearts to invite others in.

Like the rings of a tree circle out and expand through the years, so too do those born under the Chinese Astrology Element of Wood. You Wood personalities seek chances for growth and for renewal in all you do, 'branching out' (excuse the pun!) whenever possible. Your open, expansive mind makes you a compassionate and generous friend, colleague and ally. You understand the inherent value of what you and those around you possess, and your confidence allows you to act upon your beliefs.

While your strength forms the backbone of any social group or partnership you're a part of, you could have a tendency to be a bit too systematic in your thinking, and sometimes your passivity allows others to overwhelm and inhibit you. Don't let yourself be lost in a vast forest, an anonymous tree among millions of others. Make your mark on the world -- you're especially adept at business ventures.
Famous Wood Signs:Russell Crowe Angelina Jolie

Free Sun Interpretation for ray

Sun in Taurus

Although you are more like a turtle--hard shell, moving very slowly with perseverance and stubbornness--your symbol is the Bull, with pronged horns for plowing the fresh earth of late spring and planting seeds along the way. Taurus is a fixed sign, which means you prefer peace and harmony in relationships above all, rather opposite to the topsy-turvy Ram that you follow in the zodiac.

Reliability is your trademark. You crave above all security, both emotionally and financially. Your common sense gives you the edge among others of your peers as you seek careers such as banking, insurance and anything that involves persistence, stability, and relentless drive. You can take abstract ideas and make them concrete and practical. You are good at behind-the-scenes work; there is no more tirelessly, devoted worker than you in the zodiac. You have natural charm, are a good listener, and frequently provide a good shoulder to cry on for your friends. Ruled by Venus, you also enjoy the luxurious side of life--sensual pleasures such as a hot bath, champagne and leather furniture, a designer sports car, and expensive clothes. All of these appeal to your need for comfort, and your inherent possessive nature.

Tradition is also important to you. You typically have a family, enjoy children, and cultivate your possessions over time. You are slow, steady and plodding--the most stubborn of the zodiac signs. Your reflexes are slow and cannot be pushed. You can suffer much, and for a long time, but when you've made your mind up--when someone's pushed you beyond your limit--watch out. The bull's horns have been known to gore. Your kind and gentle nature takes a long time to change.

Unfortunately, at your worst you can be jealous, greedy and possessive. Your greatest lesson in life is to learn detachment--the Zen art of letting go and feeding into the One.
Although your patience and stubbornness keep you focused and committed to long-term projects, you lack versatility and frequently cannot do two things at once. "Multi-tasking" is not something you master. However, your purity lies in a loyalty that is almost unparalleled in any other sign of the zodiac--you are a marathon runner, sticking out the race long after all other players have quit.

Your Venusian influence makes you enjoy nice things, such as good art and music. You may also have a flair for working with your hands, such as gardening, woodworking, playing a musical instrument, or technical tinkering. Venus also makes you a natural lover, and you are compatible with other earth signs such as Virgo and Capricorn, and with water signs. In romance, a lot goes on under the surface. You are subtle and quiet about what you feel. You think a lot before making that commitment, and once you do you rarely fall. If you do fall, you fall hard--your stubbornness makes it difficult to say good-bye to a long worn-out relationship. Watch out also for the Scorpios, however, to whom you are often fatally attracted. They are your polar opposites.

A Taurean man is loyal and hard-working. He does not move by instinct or intuition, but rather thinks very deliberately about his actions. He is purposeful, rather than cautious. Once he trusts, he can overcome his jealousy and suspicion. His agricultural sign and affiliation with spring also can mean a deeper connection with nature and the natural world, such as camping and outdoor sports. Though he is often not the Valentino bringing his beloved flowers, he shows his feelings with practical concerns--fixing the car, balancing the checkbook, making sure the house is in working order. Show him a bearskin rug and a fireplace, however, and you've hooked his Venusian nature forever.

A Taurean woman is also very loyal and dedicated, with a flair for interior decorating, enjoying her tastes of art, color and décor. She enjoys beauty, whether applying her makeup skillfully or providing just the right candlelight dinner. Win her heart by bringing her flowers, or reading her poetry you've just written, or playing a song on the guitar. Never try to corner her--remember always she's a bull and can charge like the pamplos in Spain. She enjoys gardening and cooking; animals are important to her.

Taureans enjoy making money and spending it, typically on sensual things that meet their very refined sense of taste. Because Taurus rules the neck, throat, cervical vertebrae, and cerebellum, their necks are often thick and sturdy. They are aware and take in much through their five senses. Though they enjoy the sensual pleasures, they are not hedonistic. Taureans also enjoy the mystical and magical. They seek spiritual answers in nature--while camping, hiking, or some other outdoor activity.

They acquire and consolidate wealth by cultivating their available resources, but their true tasks are tending, caring, nurturing, and mating. However, if they go astray, and become isolated, they can be very jealous and have a critical desire to control others. Taureans are best when given sunlight, rain and earth, and left alone to do their thing--plant seeds and harvest a crop of cash and compassion.

Sun in the Sixth House
The Sun placed in this house shines on work, daily service, and personal health. Your main goal here is to improve, whether that means improving the strength of your physical self, your work environment or your commitment to helping others. The highest ambition for people with this placement is to set aside their own individuality and selfish drives in order to serve and help others. This is, after all, the house of service, and associated with Virgo it highlights meaningful work such as doctors, nurses, counselors or any profession involving service. Finding fulfilling work is essential to you, and once you've found your chosen profession, you will devote yourself to your job and define yourself through it. You have a need to be recognized in the workplace, and are probably an efficient, meticulous and detailed hard worker. Still, you may need to learn humility by working in less-than-comfortable surroundings, and your best work may be done in a team format.

Though you worry about your health, it's usually good, and you enjoy taking care of your body through proper diet and exercise. You have an intuitive understanding about how to keep yourself healthy, with a natural concern about health and health issues. Guard against worrying too much or becoming obsessed with your health. You have a strong or weak vitality depending on how the Sun is placed here; either way, you take care of yourself and do the most to preserve your health. A sense of duty is probably important to you, and you probably either enjoy sticking to some kind of routine, or conversely, you may rebel against such restrictions and strike out on your own path because you feel confined by structure and are afraid of getting into a rut. Remember that Mercury rules this house and its influence is not very far away. If Mercury is also placed in this house, there will be an increased ability to communicate and use the intellect. More than likely, the Sun here shows that you are active in your career, and that you are disciplined and organized. Use its force wisely as you go about serving others.
Sun square Midheaven

Your career and family life are not harmonious and may conflict with each other. You may not get along with your co-workers, and you probably don't get along with your boss since you don't like authority figures in general. Your professional ambitions may have roadblocks due to family problems or obligations.

Sun opposition Pluto
There's no two ways about it, this is a negative aspect for both men and women. If you are a man, this placement generally represents the classic dictator who is extremely overbearing, forceful, and who demands that other people do what he wants. He has tremendous energy and wants to transform the world according to personal beliefs. As a result, this overbearing nature gets on people's nerves, and sometimes your life may even be in danger due to your actions. You need to step back, relax, and stop trying to control everything around you. You intimidate people by the forcefulness of your personality, and so you lose the support you would otherwise gain.

For a woman, you may need to exercise care in choosing a partner since you may have the tendency to choose one who is possessive, dominating or forceful himself. You also need to understand any subconscious desire of your own to dominate, control or be overbearing before you can really enter into a 'right' relationship with a man in the outer world. You probably will experience disappointments in love affairs due to jealousy or possessiveness; stay away from men who may be tyrannical, brutal or dictators.

Sun trine Neptune
Have you ever felt psychic in some way? This aspect shows that you probably have some kind of psychic ability, but it is up to you to develop it. Or you may be a very religious person, choosing to express your spirituality through music, art, or by giving spiritual guidance. You feel the need to create something, and if that feeling is blocked in some way, you may even experience health problems. Because much of your knowledge comes through psychic messages, you need to take care of your body and your mind through yoga, meditation or some other means of exercising both.
You probably don't work well under others, and may need to take steps to be self-employed. But that's alright because you have the intuition and confidence to succeed in whatever career you choose, especially if it has to do with art or religion. You should also pay attention to your dreams, as they can reveal your true thoughts and feelings, and will supply you with endless answers to your questions. You are extremely sensitive, and by nature are a mystic.

think this is more accurate though

Name: Astrolabe Customer April 26 1985 6:45 PM Time Zone is AWST singapore

Sign is in 01 Degrees Scorpio You tend to be quiet, reserved, secretive and, at times, quite difficult to understand. Others notice your deep emotions and feelings and wonder how to draw you out. Stubborn and tough, you fight for any position you believe in. You are very resourceful and formidable when you become angered or upset about something. You enjoy living life at the cutting edge -- for you life must be experienced intensely and totally. Quite courageous, you are willing to take calculated risks. Easily hurt by others, you often strike back with bitter sarcasm. Sensitive and curious, you are concerned with the deeper mysteries of human psychology. Once you have become interested in any subject, you pursue it with total fanaticism.

Sun is in 06 Degrees Taurus. You are known for being patient, slow moving and careful -- you love to prolong and savor enjoyable times. You appreciate and need comfort, ease and warm surroundings. Be careful of a tendency to become placid and self-satisfied and to overeat (especially sweets). You require strenuous situations in order to grow and mature properly, even though you try to avoid them. Affectionate, even-tempered and slow to anger -- when you do become emotionally upset, you are also slow to forgive and time must pass before your calm returns. You demand real results from any situation -- abstractions are very difficult for you to comprehend. Very artistic, your hands love to mold and shape things. You portray an earthy, physical sexiness that others find quite seductive.

Moon is in 15 Degrees Cancer. For the most part, you are very strong and secure emotionally. You intuitively know what to do to make others feel comfortable, loved, accepted and needed. You naturally enjoy feeding and taking care of others. Be careful that your mothering does not turn into smothering. At times, you tend to feel that those to whom you are attached can never do anything without your assistance and support. Extremely sensitive by nature, it hurts you deeply whenever anyone criticizes you. You have an almost desperate need to be loved and wanted and needed by everyone with whom you come into contact, and you go out of your way to be accommodating to them.

Mercury is in 10 Degrees Aries. Very quick-witted, you are known for being an independent thinker. You love to debate and argue, and are excellent at repartee and battles of wits. At times, however, you act too fast on hastily formed opinions and thus waste a lot of energy defending your rash and sometimes incorrect conclusions. It is perfectly acceptable for you to defend your beliefs with your usual vigor, but try not to take the opinions of others as personal insults.

Venus is in 06 Degrees Aries. You are a very affectionate person but you hate to be tied down. You are more than willing to be the aggressor in initiating new relationships. Indeed, once you have set your sights on someone, you tend to pursue him or her ardently and passionately. But you do demand your own way in a relationship. Try to give in to your partner's needs and desires once in a while.

Mars is in 00 Degrees Gemini. Your energies get turned on quickly whenever anything interests you. But you have a very short attention span and it is difficult for you to complete tasks because something else more interesting always seems to be beckoning. You love to debate and argue, usually in a spirit of friendly disagreement. But watch out that you do not get too overly aggressive or antagonistic or others will be quick to take offense where none may have really been intended. You need to be in constant physical motion -- sports or daily exercise is a must for you if you are to feel fit and healthy.

Jupiter is in 14 Degrees Aquarius. Your personal growth occurs when you have the freedom to do things in new and interesting ways -- this brings out your natural inventiveness. You are an individualist, but you are also attracted to mass movements that emphasize social betterment and you will devote much time and energy to their efforts. Very fair- minded and objective, you have extraordinary skills at organization and administration.

Saturn is in 26 Degrees Scorpio. You tend to release emotional energies only very reluctantly. This is partly due to your fear of what horrible calamity might occur should they be released -- your emotions are terribly complicated and intense. Try not to repress these energies entirely, however, or you will succumb to negative and destructive forms of compulsive behavior. Give yourself the freedom to look awkward or silly once in a while. The relief you feel will be quite therapeutic and the embarrassment (whether it is real or imagined) will pass quickly.

Uranus is in 17 Degrees Sagittarius. You, and most of your peers, have the tendency to think that all ideas, customs and traditions from the past are outmoded and irrelevant. You are attracted to radically new ideas, philosophies and religions that will, hopefully, cause sweeping changes throughout the world.

Neptune is in 03 Degrees Capricorn. You, and your entire generation, will idealize work, practicality and the ability to attain reasonable goals. But, because you will also stress the need to be selfless and giving, you may find it difficult to attain your goals unless you have lowered your expectations on all fronts.

Pluto is in 03 Degrees Scorpio. For your entire generation, this is a period of intense research and discovery in areas that were heretofore considered mysterious, remote or taboo. The root causes for many complex occurrences will be unearthed due to the intensity and thoroughness of the search.

N. Node is in 18 Degrees Taurus. It's not in your nature to seek out many casual acquaintances in your daily round of activities. You feel much more comfortable with a small, close-knit group of people -- those with whom you can relax and work toward known and clearly defined goals. Your loyalty to a person or group, once given, is forever -- you'll expend all of your quite considerable energy in seeing that the group stays together and prospers. You choose your partners and relationships so carefully that you're bound to gain certain advantages from them, including those of a material nature. Be careful though not to let mere self-service be your motivation in establishing your connections -- make sure that there's an even give-and take

2006-01-07T13:31:00.000+08:00

(:

ITS ME.

i hope ur feeling better after we talked?
no more marilyn manson - bad influence. hehs.
i shall sing for u. LALALALALALA (:

ok i m being silly.
just wanna sae ilu so much,

more den words can say;
really.

2006-01-07T11:22:00.001+08:00

am at work
i have tons of proj to do
tons
will just head home and clear them tonight

not in e mood for anythin right now
am jus staring at the com screen
starin at the windows tt i opened.
i want to talk
but i dun noe wad to sae.
i open my mouth
but no words seem to come out

2006-01-07T11:22:00.000+08:00

2006-01-07T11:05:00.000+08:00

guess i talk what u say very seriously.
thats why im so affected.

marilyn manson-u spin me

2006-01-07T10:50:00.000+08:00

can i cry
its tearing me up inside.

from last night.
its been a nightmare.

get me out of here.
somebody.

msged her and asked
she said she noes it herself.

im soberly drunk.

the car and 2 friends.
questions.
attraction?

insecurities.
i hide them well.
can u see me bleedin
behind these dark brown eyes of mine.
i strut it off.

2006-01-05T01:44:00.000+08:00

hmm i finally pulled myself back for training
with the help of lena.

what can i sae.
i almost died there.
guess it has really been a while since i last exercised
what more thai boxing.

was panting like mad
thats all i can say.

fighting with the coach was total madness.
its just suicidal.

have decided to force myself to go trainin every week
build my stamina up.
reflexes and all
give me 2 yrs

2006-01-03T09:28:00.000+08:00

new years eve was not as bad as i thought it would be
thanks to u guys out there.
the bottle of champagne is good.
will upload e pics and u guys can get it from here.

lena. we wasted a total of 40 bucks on nothn
as wad as i have said.
i wan the slip
so i can tk a pic of it

abt e song writing competition?
drop it la.

counting down the days till its all over.

2005-12-31T12:28:00.001+08:00

bad day today
im sorry that i got to work last min
am very sorry that u need to cancel yr appointments but i cant mk it in e end.

it must have disappointed you.
the tone from yr voice.
i dunno.
i really very sorry.

it wont happen again.
and i do wanna see you.

imu

2005-12-31T12:28:00.000+08:00

2005-12-30T20:29:00.000+08:00

am work again
3 more hrs to go

thank god that i have a very understanding supervisor
that understands how it feels like to be sick
instead of grumbling why i have such an attitude face
he allowed me to hide in the store to slp for 4 whole hours.
i feel so much better now.

was very touched as he did all the packing of stock
and even stayed back an hour more instead of waking me up.
i really owe him alot.

its new years eve tml
and no i no longer have plans.
bumped into weijie today.
enjoyed talkin to him
we haven seen each other for quite some time
but despite that
i know that when i need someone to be there.
he will always be there for me

ivy and thunder too.
i miss you guys.

when u are sick physically.
u wont have e energy to be all jolly and clown ard
that doesnt mean tt i am givin anyone attitude.
keepin quiet not talkin doesnt mean anythin.

from today onwards.
all i wan from now till feb is to just get my projs over and done with
i want nothin else.

i dun need you to stand up for you
but u can at least not agree to it.

angie: thanks for the cigg it helped.
chang: yes. thanks too
to e one tt msged me: thanks alot. i understand what u mean. thanks for concern

the walls are listening

2005-12-29T17:05:00.000+08:00

am at work now.
i swear i can jus fall aslp instantly.

imc quiz todae
rather tricky i would say.

yes and you noe wad?
mhs did come out
u and yr monks hill secondary.
smiles

new yrs eve mos?
i swear my friends will b stuck at the rnb side.
argh

global marketing tml
arghhhhhhhh
i wish i have half of my sis's intelligence.

i wish i can kiss yr insecurities away.
and no im not as confident as u think i am.
and im falling :)

2005-12-27T15:09:00.000+08:00

am in class now.
boring day todae
mr b really suck big time i tell u
he can jus go on n on n on n on abt himself and wad he thinks
pls tell me what i have done in the past to deserve a tutor like him?
god
im e only class that has him as the tutor
and the rest?
dr. tan
great
unfair is the word.

my throat feels like a lake of fire
i swear the medication did not help a single bit
useless female doctor.
argh

roarsssssssssssssssssssssssss argh

where is she
where is she
where is this beautiful girl
who is she
who's gonna complete my world.

2005-12-25T21:10:00.000+08:00

surfin online since theres nothin to do at work
wished i didnt surf ard.
saw this persons profile
kyo.
right.
all the memories and all the thoughts start floodin in

on CHRISTMAS day.
yes
very nice.

2005-12-24T10:23:00.000+08:00

a friend

whether i have done somethin wrong or right

she has never judged me nor put me down

a person that speaks few words.

but her actions justifies it all.

four simple words

i'll back you up

is what she will always say.

and i know that i can always count on her

vice versa too.

my friend,bro,you.

thun

2005-12-24T09:13:00.000+08:00

with a strategic marketing book in hand
and standing up serving customers.
i wish u guys a not so merry christmas.

ok i shall not spoil everyones mood by remindin them abt the reports
and more reports
mid sems and class quiz tt are ard the corner.

hmm merry christmas everyone from tp!
sharons,lena,nur,cheryl,tannia,aveline,kelvin,april,yuping n friends, and friends and friends.

ivy: hugs i haven forget u for e one millionth time. so stop grumbling.
merry christmas! hope you are feelin better now.

thun: bro, move on move on. forget abt the past. cherish e present. dun be a bitch. a new yr is approaching. hope it will be a better year for you. accident free pls.

you: heard abt the plans of opening another shop there. thats great news. :)
really happy for you.

jk: eh wassup with yr blog. hugs. call me aight.

2005-12-23T19:06:00.000+08:00

You remind me of a girl that i once knew
see her face whenever i, i look at you
Couldnt believe all of the things she put me through
this is why i just cant get with you
I know it is so unfair to you
it is so unfair
That i relayed her ignorance to you
wish I knew
I wish I knew how to seperate the two
you remind me

usher

2005-12-23T18:56:00.000+08:00

supposed to be on mc todae.
but here i am at work.
thank god my collegues are rater understanding
was snoozing away for the past 2 1/2 hours.
feelin teeny weeny slightly better
minus off the cough and the tap like nose.
right.

4 more hours to go.
and i shall go home to slp.
jus put the projs aside for todae.
i need to r-e-s-t.

things to do from 730 onwards.
strat.read through blardy slides.
entrep. points.

i cant help feelin like im 60 years old la.
really need to change my life style.

new yr resolution.
cut down on smoking (which i am)
cut down on drinkin (which i already am)
sleep early.
exercise
be nice.
positive thoughts/ thinking
be calm and cool
perserverence

sigh.

2 nights ago.
i wish i'll never recover.

2005-12-21T20:05:00.000+08:00

am finally done with the blardy sip report's appendices.
am sick
having fever.
once again
yes
but life goes on
and im working tml.

ivy i saw yr msg
u are an idert that does nt pick up yr call
i left u a testi
and no u r not forgotten

someone send me a nurse pls?
grins.

2005-12-16T15:27:00.000+08:00

wo hui yong yuan lao lao ji zhu ni de nian
wo hui hao hao zhen xi ni gei wo de shi jian

zhang zhen yue-zai jian

feb will grad.
will we still travel ard e world like how we used to say?

bright and cheery on the outside.
look within
look deep and hard into those brown eyes of mine
what do you see?
darkness
emptiness
fear
uncertainty

no but i muttered
i will be fine
i hope.

a walking corpse
thats what i am.

come fly with me
lets fly away

2005-12-15T21:00:00.000+08:00

We have no future
heaven wasn't made for me
we burn ourselves to hell
as fast as it can be
and I wish that I could be a king
then I'd know that I am not alone
Maggots put on shirts
Sell each others shit
sometimes I feel so worthless
sometimes I feel discarded
I wish that I was good enough
then I'd know that I am not alone
Death is policeman
Death is the priest
Death is the stereo
Death is a TV
Death is the Tarot
Death is an angel and
Death is our God
killing us all
she puts the seeds in me
plant this dying tree
she's a burning string
and I'm just the ashes

stressed and fucked inside out

2005-12-15T20:34:00.000+08:00

working right now
feeling kinda sleepy already.
thank god i have less than 4 more hours to go
i have had enough of the imc text book

kk book is not much better
i swear i need a new pair of glasses with new degree

had a dream last night of her.

i have been busy busy busy
sch.work. grp proj.own proj.revision
gym.lifting weights at hm.

sometimes i feel that i cant last any longer
that im gonna fall soon

but no
im not gonna let that happen
not gonna let anythin get into my way

i seriously think r/s are a flop.
i dont want to think abt it too.

theres no point tellin someone how much u miss her
when u are not e one for her.

wells.
i finally got my new pair of oakley shades.
now that i have it.
i dun really think its nice anymore
i still prefer the EA one i saw in suntec.

every step i take
leads me one step closer the end of the road
closer to the day where i finally put everythin to a halt.
bidding goodbye
i hope for that day
till then..
here i am standing up strong
trying to brave it all.

thunder: i know how the hell you feel man. it totally suck big time. was in yr position 3 years back but am still not taking it lying down. i'll get her for you.
we'll get her

2005-12-08T17:13:00.000+08:00

thurs todae.
first week of school almost over.
which is a blessing in disguise.

had some kinda confrontation with someone in sch this week.
utterly disgusted.
dont really want to talk about it.

3 peoples bdae this week
lena, wj happy birthdae.

to you: hugs hope u had e merriest bdae.

2005-12-05T21:58:00.000+08:00

dear you
todays my first day of school
all has been well
but as usual im stressing myself up again.

feeling kinda fucked up inside.
i hope life has been good for you,
mine is really frustrating.
imu

2005-12-04T09:32:00.000+08:00

finally am blogging
been hesitating to blog these daes.
cant hold on any longer.

i wonder how have you ben lately.
well i guess. good i reckon.
i miss you dearly.
so many times i almost dial yr number up.

tml's e first day of sch
but guess everythin is really diff.
since 2.1 u have been there.
its weird now.

i miss you much.

looking forward for e new sem
yeah right

2005-11-25T22:11:00.000+08:00

msged u online to tell u abt my progression
instead of lettin me say what i have to say
u put words into my mouth again
and evaluate me as a whole
putting me down

this isnt e first time u didnt let me finish my sentence
and put me down

u didnt even care to let me finish up
dun judge me when u dunno e full story

wad the is all i wanted to sae.
u added fuck
assumptions

yes i am adding on to yr frustrations
when i was the one wronged.

thankyouverymuch

everythins jus fucked up inside out.
people readin this.
pls leave me alone.
for a couple of days.
much appreciated.

2005-11-25T14:56:00.000+08:00

long mc.
back at work now.
day 2.

managed to get my voice back finally
but i still sound like some drag in my very husky voice.

sharon im really sorry i cant mk it on the eve of yr bdae.
will be working afternoon shift till 11pm
feeling kinda sick too.
im really sorry.
if u guys are meetin on sun do let me know

have a great day tml all right
hugs.
happy birthday in advance.

attachment's finally comin to an end soon
dec2.
but suddenly it mks no difference to me.
boss asked me to stay.
work as part time and i agreed.
wells.
guess its better to work than to burn my weekends away doin nuts.

shall plan and manage my time carefully on that.

24-26/12 burnt.
working.

2005-11-22T21:26:00.000+08:00

if a pic paints a thousand words. wad does this pic say

2005-11-21T18:24:00.000+08:00

on mc again
been really sick
am totally voiceless now
so people.
pls do not call me
yeah
i cant speak at all..

hope you are doin fine
msged u yest but no reply.
guess u are right
i am not e one for me
cant give u wad u need at all
all e tryings but still in vain.
think u are better off w.o me

the other dae when u called and cried.
i tried to talk to u
dun understand y u need to slam my phone and sae if theres someone by yr side u wont call me
dunno la.

nvm.

happy to noe u hit yr target

2005-11-18T12:22:00.000+08:00

in mc todae
feelin real terrible
fever hit up to 39.4 yest
feeling so much better right now though
jus voiceless.

i got my new specs
my new phone
hee hee

i wan my shades!
and shoes!

2005-11-13T13:23:00.000+08:00

you really fuck up my day
i should have known
todae is my only off and this is wad happened
pls dun come and apologise when u have already haboured this thought in yr mind for quite some time

made me mk a wasted trip for nuts
dun come ard telling me u wanna meet again
enough
spend ur time with tt woman.

2005-11-12T19:26:00.000+08:00

if you dont care
than i dont care

go ahead hurl at me
theres too much resentment

you spite me and
i spite you back

i love you
but its jus not enough

to end all e paranoia

never thought of stalling your time

dissapointment.
in me.
in you.

im screwed up

love will tear us apart
When the routine bites hard

And ambitions are low

And the resentment rides high

But emotions won’t grow

And we’re changing our ways,

Taking different roads

Then love, love will tear us apart again

Why is the bedroom so cold

Turned away on your side?

Is my timing that flawed,

Our respect run so dry?

Yet there’s still this appeal

That we’ve kept through our lives

Love, love will tear us apart again

Do you cry out in your sleep

All my failings expose?

Get a taste in my mouth

As desperation takes hold

Is it something so good

Just can’t function no more?

When love, love will tear us apart again

2005-11-09T19:13:00.000+08:00

just came home not long ago
off today
went for x ray in e mornin and jus came bk from some consultation
yeah

work has been pretty all right
thanks ivy for making the trip down to acc me last night.

i wan to buy shades!
really dunno which to get
half jacket..which color!
vaulve or juliet?
unknown?
argh
my icon back pack

you..
hope all has been fine for you
dun let yr neighbours bring you down
i might not be able to b there for u all the time
but im jus a phone call away.
hugs
with love

2005-11-04T16:54:00.000+08:00

off todae went to the doc with regards to my back
bad response.
will need to go for a x ray soon

u were the first person to noe abt it
but the response i had told me that u dun really wanna noe
or care.

will jus blog down my thoughts in the future.

anyway
the timetable is out
wad can i sae?
HOW SUAY CAN I GET??????
ARGH

same grp mates as last sem??????????
somebody jus kill me pls
y can it b same grp mates as yr 2.1
fuck

worse still early early classes
9am.
means. i got to wk up at like wad. 7?

not to mention that most classes will be held at ENGINE BLOCK
im not discriminating here
im jus argh.

shall dress and blend in with e engine folks

2005-10-27T15:22:00.000+08:00

i know im at fault and im e main cause
im sorry

one more try.
thats all i need.

im barely making it.

2005-10-19T08:56:00.000+08:00

argh
pissed
suppose to work afternoon but the fella told me mornin
so early in e mornin at 5 i woke up
travelled to airport to find out tt i am only suppose to come at 3
like wtf???????????

so here i am
back at home again
life has been all right
working shifts but its fine as i get to sit down, play pin ball, games,smoke and watch vcd
watched golden chicken
god
can die la.
was really laughin out loud.
shall bring some vcds to work ltr

i have managed to sell 4 shades in a dae
good good
discussed and suan-ed my boss
expecting bonus
haha

2005-10-11T14:04:00.000+08:00

young and problems free

2005-10-11T14:03:00.000+08:00

those were the days.

2005-10-11T12:44:00.000+08:00

i miss you

Ever since the day you went away
and left me lonely and cold
My life just hasn't been the same ohh baby, nooo
When I looked into your eyes the moment that I let you go
I just broke down (down)
Baby if I ever get the chance to be with you again
I would sacrifice
Cuz the feeling that I feel within
No other man would ever make me feel so right
Its nice to smile when I get your phone call at night
But I'd rather have you here with me, right next to me
I miss the way you hold me tight
I gotta let you know I feel so weak without your touch
I never thought that I could ever love a man so much
I gotta let you know I think that we are destiny
For you I'd cross the world, for you I'd do anything
Thats right baby I'm going crazyI need to be your lady
I've been thinking lately
That you and me, yes we can make it
Just ride with me, roll with me
I'm in love with you

2005-10-04T20:19:00.000+08:00

soory nurse and sharon
i cant catch up with u guys
i have a 16 hrs shift
yes u got me
16hrs

i am sick and tired of grumbling cos i dont think it will ever work
fuck it.

things tt i wanna buy

6 pakley tops---- mum gettin it for me!
1 jacket
1 why 8.0 titanium----mum is gettin it too!
1 unknown
1 minute

right.

and a trip with you

2005-10-02T23:39:00.000+08:00

taken some time ago

2005-10-02T23:38:00.001+08:00

wads new....

2005-10-02T23:38:00.000+08:00

act only

2005-10-02T23:36:00.000+08:00

end of tanning session!

2005-10-02T23:35:00.000+08:00

ray e monkey

2005-10-02T23:33:00.000+08:00

the sun is jus glaring

2005-09-25T23:32:00.000+08:00

work has been tiring
the pay mediocre

got to noe more abt oakley
models models and more models

sold ard 7 pairs so far
cramps

anyway
zzzzzzzzzzz

2005-09-18T16:48:00.000+08:00

ray is sick
whats new.

think my health is gettin from bad to worse
really have to do something abt it

monday. tml
briefing early in the morning.
845am. what a timing. argh

i hope tml will be a great day.

attachment starting on wed. just the thought of it makes me sick
argh
attachment means lesser time for myself and the people around me.

i cant wait for everythin to be over.
attachment. sem 3.2
i cant wait to get out of school

shall take a long break after sem 3.2 before i cont my journey.

2005-09-13T14:55:00.000+08:00

2005-09-11T15:41:00.000+08:00

you

Deceiving Me

When I said I loved you,
It was a lie.
Lust is whatI felt inside.
I'm still wonderingwhat love is,
This couldn't have been it,
it wasn't all bliss.
We definitely wouldn'tbe good together;
The two of us mixing
was like bad weather.
You were snow,
and I was the sun.
The task of staying together
could never be done.
If I say this over and over,
maybe I'll believe.
I'll get out of this okay,if I can deceive me.

2005-09-07T14:47:00.000+08:00

2005-09-06T11:41:00.000+08:00

i am so damn bloody bored at home
suprising i woke up at 10 plus today
am now i dont noe what to do to myself..

wanted to go and look for a job to kill time
parents are kinda against the idea for i dunno why.
said that at most now i spend alil more. its ok
argh

i have the time doesnt mean my friends have
so therefore am alone.
once again.
snore.

told my parents i wanna go for e dec intake rather than the july one
they were lk for wad?
i was lk to work?
dad started laughing loudly.
roaring.

sigh.

2005-09-04T15:33:00.000+08:00

got quite pissed off after readin an article published on lifestyle, sunday times
Beer Bingeing Butches

no am not speaking up for the entire butches but at least for myself
i really think its unfair for them to state that butches cant behave themselves and are atrocious
being at clubs on weds wanting to get it for free and not.

pls.
for one. im not the following.
who gives a fuck if its ladies night
if its free entry for those that dresses and behaves like one to lure more men into the clubs
its not as though im cant afford and dont have the dough to splurge.

2005-09-01T13:43:00.000+08:00

2005-08-23T17:24:00.000+08:00

Nothing that you say will release you
Nothing that you pray would forgive you
Nothing´s what your words mean to me
Something that you did will destroy me
Something that you said will stay with me
Long after you´re dead and gone
If flesh could crawl
My skin would fall
From off my bones
And run away from here

As far from God
As heaven is wide
As far from God
As angels can fly
If holy is as holy does
This house will burn straight down to hell
Take it´s conscience with it
As it falls
Nothing said could change the fact
My trust was blind
You broke the pact
If God´s my witness, God must be blind
If flesh could crawl
My skin would fall
From off my bones
And run away from here
As far from God
As heaven is wide
As far from God
As angels can flyI wish, I wishI wish, I wish
Take it back I dare you take it back
No you can´t?
You should have thought of that
What´s inside a man
That goes so wrong
Choke on guilt that´s far too good for you
Say one word I´ll laugh and bury you
And leave you in the place
Where you left me

2005-08-23T14:56:00.000+08:00

i have a lil confession to make.
went drinkin yest and the night before
last night
i had a couple more of drinks and i thought i was fit enough to
and 8 sticks of fag
results?

fucked.
but wells.
drinkin and singing was great yest.
all the songs i sang made me feel so old.
right.
must be the crowd tt i hang with
not me!

shopping time soon
forget abt savin money
bahs
saw this fcuk top and jacket that i so wanna lay my hands on
too hot to fcuk
AHHHH
shall try to persuade my mum.

these marketing friends of mine have ditched me.
sigh.

2005-08-22T13:57:00.000+08:00

its jus plain unfair for me to get bk together with you
suddenly come back to me like that

its jus like a couple abt to get married
and the wife to be left the man
when the guy managed to get over it and start a new life
the woman comes into pic again...

2005-08-22T13:24:00.000+08:00

thank you for all the things that you have done for me for the past few days
i really appreciate it dearly
thank you for trashing things out with me
for once i can really feel that u have grown up
matured
from the way you face me, the way u talk to me, the issues that u raised up
i am really happy that u are changing for the better
it will really benefit you.

am touched when u said u wanna hear everythin tt i have to sae
u wanna b the one tt noe the mos abt me.
thanks
the though itself is really sweet

but.
the problem right now does not lie with you
but me.
despite knowing that u are really trying
i cant bring myself to try things out once more
yes.
i have been waiting for one year odd
finally u want to change
i should be happy.
but it came alittle too late.
for im feeling worse than being dead.
its jus numb.

one day i might regret the decision tt i have made.
by not trying
i never know.

but i noe tt one dae u will stand up proud and happy.
thats enough to deter my thoughts.
for i feel tt i might not be able to give u want u wan.

learn how to cherish wadever u have now
from yr friends tt stood by you to your family members
do not yell and shout at them.
they have feelings too.
they are the ones tt will stick by u through thick and thin

the ring will remain and remind me of the past
both happy and unhappy ones
serves as a lesson learnt.

she

she has been there for me
waiting and supporting me for the past 6 yrs.
really appreciate that
and we get along really well.
i want to give myself a chance.
to give her a chance
though things are not as stable
and as certain,
she really respects me..
she seeks to understand me better

i hope u understand...
its not a change of heart
its abt me being stuck in the tunnel alone for too long
i cant see the light...
waitin for you to come and rescue me, salvage it.
hrs, days,months past
as i die in despair.
i was there, squatting waitin for u to come
in agony.

jus like a dying patient waitin for their love ones to come
some made it
some did not
you did not.
i did not manage to catch a glimpse of you
before i die, emotionally.

deviod of emotions

liang jing ru-jie shou

wo men dou jie shou
yi ding shi bi ci bu gou cen shou
zai ai qing li fen bu liao qing zhong

ai shi yi ge zi si de nian tou..
shen xia de na xie gan dong
nen ji de duo jiu

2005-08-19T13:23:00.000+08:00

still kinda sick...
the medicine has zero effect on me.
zero.
yes

now both blocked and runny nose has invited mr cough to party too
i shall stay at hm for the whole of todae
while most marketing students will be partyin their asses away
im cool with that.
argh

alot of things have been happening lately.
so fast than everythin is blurred
its as though am experiencing a tunnel image
everythin is too fast and im finding it diff to picture anythin

firstly, this sem has more or less ended.
with projects submitted.
and that presentations are finally over.
which is cool.

a big thanks to everyone who made this semester an easier one to get through
nur tannia aveline kelvin sharonss nurse lena e monkey wj jane
ivy: thanks for being there though i can get real grouchy and grumpy
thunder: thanks bro
amanda: thanks for always being there whenever i need a listening ear. picking me up. really enjoy being with you.

erm to those tt i did not mention
means tt we haven been in contact lately
so u noe wad to do ya
MEET UP

2005-08-17T21:37:00.000+08:00

what a timin to fall sick i swear
services presentation todae
had sore throat
very bad sore throat.
had difficulty talkin wad mroe for me to present.
sucks,
tml too
sales management presentation
stayun bk for NE
my body jus wana collapse

2005-08-15T13:43:00.000+08:00

quit sayin im zi lian....

2005-08-15T13:42:00.000+08:00

yes nora took this.. look so physco here

2005-08-15T13:41:00.002+08:00

yes and im learning hw to smile if u guys can tell