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Thursday, April 29, 2004 10:16 PM

jus came back from town
went for movies with jane
watch beautiful boxer n startsky n hutch
haha love snoop dog man. damn cute.
walked ard town n it started pouring
went into flash n splash n got myself a pair of sandals.
will be needing it for my upcomin lessons for speedboat.
was eatin green peas at edo sushi n jane took a pic of me eatin.kept laughin cos she said i looked lk a glutton n a hamster.
sigh.
she took a pic of me eatin it b4.
argh nvm.

meetin friends tml headin down to mox.
shall relax n enjoy myself tml night. :>
sat n sun wld b learnin speedboat hope i can get the liscence soon.
heard that the theory is kinda diff though. hate theory stuffs. argh.
shall keep myself as occupied as possible so as to not let my mind go astray.
lets see.
next week.
thurs, sat n sun gone.
wad am i gg to do for mon tue wed n fri?
sigh sigh.
more dvds?
shall surf the net to see wad courses i cld pick up.
ciao for now.

simplicity ;
thats the way things should be

*****


Wednesday, April 28, 2004 6:37 PM

guess its just the date, the time thats mkin me all so pathetic.
thinkin if she still rems the date, whether she takes note of it at all.
being alone at hm doesnt help at all.
going down to gardens to return e dvds dont help either.
how can a blind man see the light?
where is the light?
its just darkness surrounding me.

simplicity ;
thats the way things should be

*****


4:07 PM

Time Never Goes Back...

Once upon a time, there was a teacher and his student lying down under a big tree near a big grass area. Then, suddenly, the student asked the teacher,

Student : Teacher, I'm confused, how can we find our soul-mate? Can you please help me?

Teacher : (Silent for few second, then he answered) Well, it's a pretty hard and easy question.

Student : (Thinking hard) Huh???

Teacher : Look on that way, there are a lot of grass there, why don't you walk there but please never walk backward, just walk straight ahead. On your way, try to find a beautiful grass and pick it up then give it to me. But just one.

Student : Well, ok then... wait for me... (walked straight ahead to the grass field).

A few minutes later...

Student : I'm back.

Teacher : Em, well I don't see any beautiful grass on your hand.

Student : On my journey, I found few beautiful grass, but I thought that I would find a better one, so I didn't pick it up. But I didn't realize that I'm at the end of the field, and I hadn't picked up any. Cause you told me not to go back, so I didn't go back.

Teacher : That's what happened in real life.

What is the message of this story?

* Grass - people around you
* Beautiful Grass - people that attract you
* Grass Field - time
* In looking for your soulmate, please don't compare and hope that there will be a better one. By doing that, you'll waste your lifetime, cause remember Time Never Goes Back.. And There Can Only Be One.. = P

Think this story's very true.. I kinda have a practical outlook in regards to my soulmate.. And I dont really believe in love at first sight.. Maybe yar, attraction at first sight.. It takes 2 persons' efforts to create love between them.. So it's no use waiting and no use expecting.. Improve on yourself and consider carefully before you choose the grass.. Then, dont ever let go of it ever..

simplicity ;
thats the way things should be

*****


Tuesday, April 27, 2004 9:50 PM

been thinkin abt yf this few daes.
hmm.
nvm

simplicity ;
thats the way things should be

*****


3:09 PM

flash back
yest. 26/4/04
went to sch in the mornin to return a book borrowed fr the library in my horrendous hair color.
wj saw and his jaws were wide open
went home caught mr deeds on dvd.
rested n went out for dinner.
drinkin at chasser.
went to ktv
and looked for guss ltr at night.
nothin much to sae abt the incident other than just my luck to b there when the somewad owner was drunk
drama.

suppose to meet boon ltr but called it off.
dont really feel lk movin
tired. reached hm only at 5 plus. slept at 6 odd.
feel that my cramps are comin damn.

its very surprising to find out that those people that u least expect to rem u, rems.
and those that u wish they remembered didnt.

simplicity ;
thats the way things should be

*****


Sunday, April 25, 2004 1:11 PM

was driving yest with my parents in the car too.
dad was pretty relax.
mum was abit tense at first
than said tt actually i can drive well.
but she keep sayin tt im going too fast.
argh.
how slow u wan me to drive sia.
on a expressway?
grrrr

exams are finally over.
but still dont feel good
still kinda tied up and guess i will feel lk tt till i get my results back
kinda scared of gettin them back though
jus have this gut feelin that i will need to retake 2 papers.
accounts n econs
arghhhhhhhhhhhhhh
god up there lookin down at me, yes you plsssssss help me.

went to cut my hair yest
told the hair dresser anythin is fine
somethin shirt n diff.
now... its all lk erm.
ok i lk like an urchin.

stayin at hm todae
dont really feel lk gg out.
perhaps to gardens to borrow some dvd back.

yup. time to go and look for a job too.
since hols are here n i dont want to jus rot my daes away.
shall flip the papers ltr.
startin fr next sat n sun i will be going for my speed boat lessons.
hee hee

simplicity ;
thats the way things should be

*****


Friday, April 23, 2004 10:43 PM

I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why i need you to hear

I've found a resaon for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You [x4]

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you

simplicity ;
thats the way things should be

*****


12:40 PM

Deep down you know it's best for yourself but you
Hate the thought of her being with someone else
But you know that it's over
We know that it's through
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn


Sendin' pages I ain't supposed to
Got somebody here but I want you
Cause the feelin ain't the same
find myself
Callin' her your name
Ladies tell me do you understand?
Now all my fellas do you feel my pain?
It's the way I feel
I know I made a mistake
Now it's too late
I know she ain't comin back
What I gotta do now
To get my shorty back
Ooo ooo ooo ooooh
Man I don't know what I'm gonna do
Without my booo
You've been gone for too long
It's been fifty-leven days, um-teen hours
Imma be burnin' till you return
When your feeling ain't the same and your body don't want to
But you know gotta let it go cuz the party ain't jumpin' like it used to
Even though this might bruise you
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn

I'm twisted cuz one side of me is tellin' me that I need to move on
On the other side I wanna break down and cry (ooooh)
I'm twisted cuz one side of me is tellin' me that I need to move on
On the other side I wanna break down and cry (yeah)

simplicity ;
thats the way things should be

*****


12:32 PM

just got up not long ago
waiting for wj to come b4 we head to gardens for econs.
tml's my last paper
should be feelin happy
but am not
cant totally relax myself until i get my results back
have a gut feelin tt am gonna need to go back to sch durin may to tk supp paper.
argh.
better study hard ltr n mk sure tt acc will b e only supp if i really need to tk supp.

simplicity ;
thats the way things should be

*****


Wednesday, April 21, 2004 10:19 PM

accounts exams todae
real screwed up.
yeah.
seriously.
supp paper.
frustration.
dun come any nearer.

ursher-burn

simplicity ;
thats the way things should be

*****


Tuesday, April 20, 2004 8:26 PM

flash back
yest. was in sch muggin till late.
than got caught up in some arguement with this guy
suddenly the whole library errupted.
could hear the shoutings fr one end to e other.
almost wacked someone in sch.
too long a story to elaborate.argh wadever.
mum came down lk e head of e gangster
stood there in shock. ha. nvm.

mbs todae.not tt bad. 15 marks somewad gone though.
able to pass.
thats all i ask for anyways.
shall revise my accounts for tml. 3 more chaps to go.
e most impt ones sad to sae. right.
there we go again.

oh.how nice can my own real sis get.
"hey i bought a bdae pressie for u"
me: amazed. huh right. like?
sis: grins a p plate for e car.
me: -_-" well well...thats nice thats nice
me: walks away

mox on a sundae? anyone?

simplicity ;
thats the way things should be

*****


Sunday, April 18, 2004 9:29 PM

decided not to work during the holidaes.
still duno abt..
shall see how it goes.

its either
i take up thai boxin and bike lessons during the holidae.
or i work the whole holidae out.

simplicity ;
thats the way things should be

*****


9:27 PM

sick sick sick
am still sick
worse than ever
exams comin soon
argh
cant concentrate while studyin todae.
did mbs and accounts.
shall cont studyin half an hour later.
rib cage is hurtin to e max.
the right side.
argh.

simplicity ;
thats the way things should be

*****


Saturday, April 17, 2004 11:55 AM

yest....
haha i pass my drivin test!!! ohhhh weeeeeee!
next shall proceed to bike. grins
yest...
overall was ok.
met up with her for dinner. dunno whether its a good choice.
made a fool out of myself again with my blardy chinese.
left to meet yiting n friends
was kinda pissed off cos i realised i lost some money
argh. yeah
headed to ktv. was singing some songs tt i haven sang for quite some time.
to mk it worse n drinkin so emotions came pouring it.
not knowing how to handle e situation n put off the fire
i msged her. -_-"
the rest dun need to sae le.

went down mooks or mox dunno wads e actual spellin la.
was abt closing time didnt noe abt it so went to ask.
the next thing i noe? i was blendin with all e gays there
talked to me, smiled at me, worse still one was grabbin my arm
omg.
n friends didnt help jus stood there to watch the show.
really send goosebumps to me when he calls me darling.
oh god.
but then again... e ambience is really good.
guess tts e flip side of the coin.

wells wells. e insurance agent got to come so early in e mornin, wake me up jus for one signature cos she made a mistake,
argh

frends comin soon to revise. shall perk myself up of leave e mess behind.

simplicity ;
thats the way things should be

*****


Friday, April 16, 2004 12:25 PM

just got up.
still feelin alil drowsy fr my medication.
didnt sleep properly last night
received msgs last night as late as 5am askin if im at e herstory party.
faints.

got to be at ssdc at 340
sigh.
shall haf my lunch and start revising.

its bad to fall sick at this point of time.
first
exams
second wen u r feelin weak u jus wish someone is here.
and third due to the above factor, u get frustrated and throws temper ard.
sigh sigh.

just let me let go n b done with this sem.

simplicity ;
thats the way things should be

*****


Thursday, April 15, 2004 10:08 PM

You packed in the morning I stared out the window
and I struggled for something to say
you left in the rain without closing the door
I didn't stand in your way.

But I miss you more than I missed you before
and now where I'll find comfort, god knows
'cause you left me just when I needed you most
left me just when I needed you most.

Now most every morning I stare out the window
and I think about where you might be
I've written you letters that I'd like to send
if you would just send one to me.

'Cause I need you more than I needed before
and now where I'll find comfort, god knows
'cause you left me just when I needed you most
left me just when I needed you most.

You packed in the morning I stared out the window
and I struggled for something to say
you left in the rain without closing the door
I didn't stand in your way.

Now I love you more than I loved you before
and now where I'll find comfort, god knows
'cause you left me just when I needed you most
oh yeah you left me just when I needed you most
you left me just when I needed you most.

simplicity ;
thats the way things should be

*****


4:31 PM

think i really got itchy fingers
went to read the archives of the blog.
heart is damn heavy now.
thoughts are wandering away AGAIN.
ok bed time or work out time dun wanan think abt it.
damn.
shucks

simplicity ;
thats the way things should be

*****


3:47 PM

feelin damn moody now
not feelin any better at all.
if not worse.
tml's my tp n i noe im bound to fail it again.
so much for this being a good year for me. bahs

oh oh got a C plus for my mbs
hee hee
not good but well am damn happy already
its even better than my accounts n econs
beams.
ok
maybe nap? or study?
sigh.

simplicity ;
thats the way things should be

*****


10:29 AM

blardy guss u better call me back or else.
argh
shit head you.

am feelin damn it pek cek now. jus fucked up la. first im sick
than its the exams
fine than this blardy guss.
fuck u la.
better call me soon.
argh

simplicity ;
thats the way things should be

*****


Wednesday, April 14, 2004 11:22 PM

got back the comm skills grade.
grp proj d
individual presentation A

had idp exam todae
sucked big time all e others had like 3 pages of full scape full
and me? erm one? not even
fwah.
was studyin at hm n headed down to gardens with friends for dinner
saw kaiwei
didnt noe why. just happy to see her. talked to her for awhile n she got to meet someone. hmm hmm..seldom in contact as shes always flyin ard.
do hope to catch up with her soon.

pan pac hotel. set. :>
partyin here we come soon.
can see 6 crazy people jumpin ard on e bed rollin on e floor.
haha

simplicity ;
thats the way things should be

*****


Monday, April 12, 2004 8:06 PM

warning letters
warning letters~
collect them all.
missed 3 classes todae
means i will get 3 letters.
mum noes abt it so i guess its fine..

overall results.
ob B
Econs port folio B
but classwork n test pulled it down to a D
guess its fine
at least i passed.
failed my test.
acc D
yawns all e D's
will receive mbs n comm skills on thurs
why do i have a gut feelin its gonna be D's?
ha
thurs...cant go out n play
firstly.
exams are really ard e corner
secondly.
mum bought another insurance under my name.
got to sign or wadever on thurs. -_-"
the insurance agent was like. eh ger ur life is heavily insured ah.
-_-"

simplicity ;
thats the way things should be

*****


Saturday, April 10, 2004 8:16 PM

went to the doc yest due to the bad fall i had in the escalator.
fell two steps.
feelin alil better now.
not that painful.
back is on the road of recovery.
back on place.
shall keep e good work up.
comm skills exams todae.
hope that i can scrape through man
the weather suck todae
its frigging hot
jus got up
damn
suppose to revise on econs
im a dead man!

cant wait for exams to end.
ahmad,wj,stacey,jane,jessie,and i!
ktv in e afternoon, dinner in e evenin, party at night and stay over at e hotel for more boozing.woohoo.

boon: yeah i noe who u feel
kinda worried when u msged me that yest cos normally u seem lk u wld jus keep it to yrself.
hang in there no matter what.
im not much better but well im trying.

simplicity ;
thats the way things should be

*****


Friday, April 09, 2004 12:36 PM

just got up.
its a fri. good fri :>

had a long day yest.
was all dressed up in formal.
the total transformation in my class.
even the most bo chups look good yest.

had 2 presentation yest.
first was comm skills.
everyone was pretty nervous i guess.
its a first major presentation after all.
can see some guy's hand shaking non stop
the stutterings and all...
i was the first grp to present.
but well. i got to sae we made an improvement
a huge leap fr the trial presentation.
can see that everyone tried.
i think im fine just that the front part i was like a bullet train.
hmmm i can do better next time tt i noe...

straight after that was my idp presentation.
was rushing for time.
only had sandwich e whole day till 7 plus.
till then my ciggs were half gone.

went to chasser after everythin was done.
the live band there is good.
its just those lovey dovy kind
where u can jus sit there relax n stone
not too loud.
nice..
some thoughts flashed across my mind
told ahmad abt it too.
for once he looked damn serious when im talkin to him
appreciate that.
thankz boon for understandin too
and the 1 jug and a mug.


feel like i have a huge weight out of my chest.
feels better now.
wells. comm skills test tml.
will be meetin wj, jane n stacy to revise both tt n econs.
cant slack no more man.

my dog took half of my breakfast.
grr.
time to get change.


i dont wanna know

simplicity ;
thats the way things should be

*****


Sunday, April 04, 2004 8:14 PM

passion of the christ.
a must watch i have to say.
real fantastic
went to catch it with my classmates after presentation yest.
cried very badly when i saw the scenes where he was tortured.
storyline is abt the last 12 hrs where he was on earth
real sweet real touchin.
makes one real guilty.
the whole theatre was so quit
all u can hear is people sobbing
shall wait for the dvd to be out.

drivin todae was ok.
am still as reckless as ever.
sigh.
gonna b a tedious week this comin week
wish me luck

simplicity ;
thats the way things should be

*****


Friday, April 02, 2004 12:59 PM

been 10 0000 years since i last went for drivin lesson
am going tml hope i can still rem how to drive and park the damn car in
second tp test would be on the 16th.
2 weeks away.
shall start to pick up drivin again.
dun expect much this time ard.
no more high hopes of passin.
just finished my power point slides.
gonna touch on my mbs notes before its too tooo tooo too late.
i passed my access test. :>
11.5 out of 15. hehe
ok run along with my studies
might b gg down town to catch a movie ltr
shall see how things go

oh.
just rem that i got to pass my drivin asap man.
sigh.
ahmad n fren wans to get their liscence for bike,.
wanna go for it too.
wanna tk e damn theory with them
hope it doesnt clash with my drivin
even better still hope i will pass my drivin by them
grrrr

simplicity ;
thats the way things should be

*****


Thursday, April 01, 2004 8:43 AM

good mornin everyone.
its 845 am now.
am already in sch
sigh.
its april e first.
19 more daes to go b4 mass suicide happens.
toldl ym mum tt startin next week after all the projs are doen wont b comin home that much
will be over at nus till late at e central library mugging away.
sigh.
mbs access test in 15 mins time.
trial presentation at 1.
sat ob presentation.
next thurs comm skills actual presentation. formal -_-"
sat comm skills test

haven really been sleepin nowadaes.
think im really lack of sleep.
ah
ok
shall stop complainin.
wells wells
thats life

simplicity ;
thats the way things should be

*****

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