Yesterday you asked me something
I thought you knew
So i told you with a smile
Its all about you
Then you whispered in my ear
And you told me too
Said you make my life worthwhile
Its all about you
And i would answer all your wishes
If you ask me to
But if you deny me one of your kisses
Don't know what I'd do
So hold me close
And say three words like you used to do
Dancing on the kitchen tiles
Its all about you, yeah!
ONE TWO THREE FOUR FIVE
Tuesday, March 30, 2004
12:57 AM
suddenly thought of my conversation with kaiwei just a few days back.
blogged in my previous entries said that she changed lots.
yeah.
was thinkin of what she said.
said somethin like shes amazed abt why i can wait or feel for someone for so long.
said that as much as she love the person. she will not. cos she does not have the time to waste.
she rather to move to another person. to uncover more abt the new person.
said that guess she is more selfish n stuffs.
come to think of it.
what she said actually makes some sense.
other frien told me just now.
sometimes its not that u really love that person that much
its just that u keep thinkin abt e past and still let it bother u.
still feelin uneasy abt wad had happened.
i think its true too.
sometimes memories hinders a person's healin process i guess.
think i will just shove everythin to the back of my mind, clear awae the things that are lingerin in my room and be on the road again.
its time to open myself up again.
come to think of it, its kinda stupid for me to be livin in a world of my own like a hermit crab.
lettin all e chances and pretty things in life slip by.
perhaps the chat with wei is really a wake up called.
thanks kw. hugs.
haha thought of what she said abt considerin patchin before but didnt cos shes afraid to hurt me.
hmmm....
haha madness.thats thousand yrs ago,
forget it
=)
simplicity ; thats the way things should be
*****
12:17 AM
econs presentation todae
not too bad.
cramps was killin me though.
went to shop todae
not exactly the things that i will buy.
bought the stuffs that i need for next week's presentation
shirt shoes pants.
sis said i look like a pro con man. wth.
hmmm as much as i wan to click on her nick online.
i didnt.
dont want to always be the one who tks initiative.
gt to attend this mk up class tml cos i didnt go todae
sucks
its a 8am!
so tml's time table... 8-10 12-2.
10-12? proj i guess
2 onwards? revision! grins
i must stick to my plans boy.
simplicity ; thats the way things should be
*****
Monday, March 29, 2004
1:28 AM
slacked e whole dae awae too
think maine was too bored or somethin
received a msn msg fr her
pleasant surprise
went to eat n headed to her hse
damn the vcd is damn damn bored.
yawns.
simplicity ; thats the way things should be
*****
Saturday, March 27, 2004
12:22 PM
been a few daes since i last blog.
nothin much happened anyway.
bumped into e when i went to the toilet.
too coincidental. was in shock. ltr tt night was in denial.
didnt noe how to react so just smiled.
accounts test was atrocious.
really its time to start studyin
think m gonna fail tt test.
sigh.
got to buck myself up no matter what.
celebrated yf's bdae yest though its not e actual date.
wun have time by then.
mums bdae todae.
bought her a bottle of liquor.
bumped into kaiwei yest.
talked to her for awhile.
can really see the change in her
kinda disappointed when she told me her grades for A levels.
i mean..shes really a smart n diligent ger back then.
guess company of friends is real impt.
shall jus wish her all the best.
hope that she is and will be happy with her current air stewardess job.
shall go n read thru econs before meetin kaiwei ltr at 230
weijie n friends at 7.
dun think will be hm tonight.
shall jus see how things go.
simplicity ; thats the way things should be
*****
Monday, March 22, 2004
8:25 PM
Take my hand, touch my face
Let me feel your embrace
Let me see in your eyes
That you won’t say goodbye
Just tell me how you feel
I don’t know what you’re thinking anymore
And if you need me, you’d kiss me
Then tell me how you feel
And if you want me, you’d show me
That your love is for real
And if you love me
You’d hold me in your arms where I belong
So while I’m feeling strong
I sing you one last song
Let me ask time has passed
Do you feel this could last
If you don’t, why then stay
Take your wings, fly away
I love you way too much
To wanna be the one who brings you down
And if you need me, you’d kiss me
Then tell me how you feel
And if you want me, you’d show me
That your love is for real
And if you love me
You’d hold me in your arms where I belong
So while I’m feeling strong
I sing you one last song
One last song I sing for you
Like I always did
This time it’s for real
I never come to you like this
Expecting you to turn my kiss
Oh no no no no no
And if you need me, you’d kiss me
Then tell me how you feel
And if you want me, you’d show me
That your love is for real
And if you love me
You’d hold me in your arms where I belong
So while I’m feeling strong
I sing you one last song
Oh yeah
I sing you one last song
I sing you one last song
simplicity ; thats the way things should be
*****
6:57 PM
didnt really do much in sch todae
didnt noe that theres no ob tutorial todae
totally forgotten abt it so went to watch haunted mansion with frends
cute.
skipped econs n went to play pool.
suppose to go back to the doc this week
dun think so.
dun wan to hear more bad news deliverin to me.
weathers bad. n i can feel it.
argh
shall go for a bath n start studyin..
mons todae...
shall list down wads line-in up for this week..
lets see...
wed stayin back for ob
thurs acc test.
fri submission for ob proj.
comm skills due this wed. for findings part.
fri celebrate yf's bdae
erm. sat party night with friends thats at night
afternoon stayin at hm
mums bdae.
right sun..rest n study.
ok bathe time.
simplicity ; thats the way things should be
*****
Sunday, March 21, 2004
7:00 PM
just came back fr e doc.
talked abt my health.
bone structure n stuffs.
not feelin too good.
to op or not to go for e op?
shall go out for a walk ltr.
You can reach me by railway, you can reach me by trailway
You can reach me by airplane, you can reach me with your mind
You can reach me by caravan, cross the desert like an Arab man
I don't care how you get here, just- get here if you can
You can reach me by sailboat, climb a tree and swing rope to rope
Take a sled and slide down slow, into these arms of mine
You can jump on a speedy colt, cross the border in a blaze of hope
I don't care how you get here, just- get here if you can
There are hills and mountains between us
Always something to get over
If I had my way, then surely you would be closer
I need you closer
You can windsurf into my life, take me up on a carpet ride
You can make it in a big balloon, but you better make it soon
You can reach me by caravan, cross the desert like an Arab man
I don't care how you get here, just- get here if you can
I don't care, I dont care, I need you right here right now
I need you right here, right now, right by my side
I don't care how you get here, just- get here if you can
simplicity ; thats the way things should be
*****
Saturday, March 20, 2004
3:35 PM
yeah shes back fr thai.
finally. dun think am meetin tanya at harry's ltr
stupid ger nv get back to me.
shall meet her instead. my girl, e show tt she wans to catch
prefer runaway but doubt she wld wanna watch. nvm.
simplicity ; thats the way things should be
*****
Friday, March 19, 2004
8:08 PM
As I walk this land with broken dreams
I have visions of many things
Love's happiness is just an illusion
Filled with sadness and confusion.
What becomes of the brokenhearted
Who had love that's now departed?
I know I've got to find
Some kind of peace of mind, maybe
The fruits of love grow all around
But for me they come a-tumblin' down.
Every day heartaches grow a little stronger
I can't stand this pain much longer
I walk in shadows searching for light
Cold and alone, no comfort in sight,
Hoping and praying for someone to care
Always moving and going nowhere
What becomes of the brokenhearted
Who had love that's now departed?
I know I've got to find
Some kind of peace of mind, maybe
I'm searching though I don't succeed,
But someone look, there's a growing need.
Oh, he is lost, there's no place for beginning,
All that's left is an unhappy ending.
Now what's become of the broken-hearted
Who had love that's now departed?
I know I've got to find
Some kind of peace of mind
I'll be searching everywhere
Just to find someone to care.
I'll be looking every day
I know I'm gonna find a way
Nothing's gonna stop me now
I will find a way somehow
simplicity ; thats the way things should be
*****
4:04 PM
am fuckin pissed with my sis now i tell u
can just blardy bang a wall down now.
shall jus fuckin go out after im done with my work
darn.
realised that i did something last night.
shucks.
guss knew it and she didnt stop me.
faints.
really wasnt aware that i msged her.
was kinda tipsy n depressed.
checked my sent items todae.
man....
simplicity ; thats the way things should be
*****
Thursday, March 18, 2004
10:38 AM
- gooood morningg world -
:)), faye
simplicity ; thats the way things should be
*****
10:34 AM
am in sch now
just finish the mbs presentation
screwed up
haah but the tutor still said it was an improvement...
classmate intrudes ...
HELLO!! long time no blog mann!!
this is ray's classmate - faye! :))
Ray is evil/mean!!
byeeeeeeeeeeeeee...
simplicity ; thats the way things should be
*****
Wednesday, March 17, 2004
9:19 PM
Lately I've been trying
To fill up my days since you're gone.
The speed of love is blinding,
And I didn't know how to hold on.
My mind won't clear.
I'm out of tears.
My heart's got no room left inside.
How many dreams will end?
How long can I pretend?
How many times will love pass me by,
Until I find you again?
Will the arms of hope surround me?
Will time be a fairweather friend?
Should I call out to angels,
Or just drink myself sober again?
I can't hide, it's true.
I still burn for you.
Your memory just won't let me go.
How many dreams will end?
How long can I pretend?
How many times will love pass me by,
Until I find you again?
I'd hold you tighter,
Closer than ever before.
Yeah.
No flame would burn brighter,
If I could touch you once more,
Hold you once more!
How many dreams will end?
How long can I pretend?
How many times will love pass me by, until I find you again?
'till I find you again..
simplicity ; thats the way things should be
*****
Tuesday, March 16, 2004
6:13 PM
saw jo todae.
first thing she commented when she see me..
u look old n tired. -_-
no comments abt that.cant deny it anyway.
asked me if i wannna get a part time job.
told her ok.
think i will be going for the interview soon.
will work on thurs fris n sats if possible.
sun to rest and study.
shall see how things go no point plannin so far.
than i can get to learn bike with e extra cash.
shall really consider it after passin my tp that is.
dun really wanna get a car.
dun wanna use my parents money to get a car.
dun think i really need one anyways.
guess it will be a better option for me to work n to keep myself occupied
than to have so much time in hand just thinkin abt impossibles.
gettin upset, detroyin my life wastin my time..
wo ke yi ba ni dang zhou shi lu guo de ren er yi..
simplicity ; thats the way things should be
*****
Monday, March 15, 2004
7:20 PM
juist got hm
wow
what a dae.
handed in both hard and soft copies of e proj.
did 2 projs in sch
was real tired cos have been rushin n doin proj
fell aslp durin lec.
fell aslp on my way hm.guess am real tired
shall go for a nap bath n start revision.
meetin for proj tml.
fri or sat night. chillin with faye ahmad n wj.
shall see how things go.
yf jet off to thai le
leavin me alone here.
good.
better still got to go n get a mc for her on wed.
dun noe if i have the time
shall ask ivy to help.
hehe.
guss haven called since sat.
hmm wonder hows she.
terrible night the other dae.
blaque-im good
simplicity ; thats the way things should be
*****
Saturday, March 13, 2004
2:00 PM
just got hm fr sch
resalised tt i have to hand in alot of things on mon
shall start doin it now
tutor asked why am i always absent.
snores.
said she was amazed tt i passed.
yeah
kinda true too
thought i wld flung my mbs since half of e class flunged.
well.
went hm quite early yest.
readin a book that i just bought..
reflect on it for quite some time.
i noe yr plans dun include me.
dont really need me ard too.
so guess theres no use for me to keep wantin to stick ard.
at least leavin myself with some pride.
goodbye to you.
goodbye to everythin that i knew
you were e one i love
e one thing tt i tried to hold on to.
simplicity ; thats the way things should be
*****
Friday, March 12, 2004
5:15 PM
takin a break now...
complete 2 chaps of ob.
haha for once
so proud of myself.
shall read up on econs after a short break.
partyin tonight with amy n friends.
wanna keep myself occupied.
dun wanna think so much abt other stuffs.
and i cant find a way for u to fall in love with me again
n i cant find e strength to let you go..
simplicity ; thats the way things should be
*****
2:24 PM
just got up.
its 230 now..
very disturbed sleep.
tonless of dreams...felt so real tt i almost thought i didnt slp at all
than tons and tons of phone calls.
with regards to e grp projs.
mbs....idp....
mbs presentation next thurs.
know nuts abt it.
fuck.
shall go to sch tml to hand in idp
see e tutor for mbs
get my results back though i can already predict them.sigh.
and erm, ask her abt e presentation.
was at compass point last night.
nights ago asked frends if they wanna go wala.
none wanted so i skipped e idea
didnt want to go down to zouk
just dun feel lk partyin,
msged her.
again.
she replied.
thought wld be able to meet up.
nahs.
shall study.
simplicity ; thats the way things should be
*****
Thursday, March 11, 2004
1:02 PM
right JUST got back fr e doc
spent lk 3 hrs there?
faints
first it was the consultation
thought it wld end there
god noes tt doc got to refer me to some senior nurse to brief me abt my condition
than got to go get my inhalers
thought it ends here.
and once again i was proven wrong
asked me to demo how i used the inhalers.
duh
nvm
than wad else.
erm
asked me my habits. smoke? told her no
ok a big fat lie
drink? told her abit
asked me wad? vodka?
i smiled said brandy..bad try again
more naggin
3 inhalers. 2 for everydae use. "REM ah GOT TO USE"
ok..
one more for the attack itself.
sigh
all i wanted was a m.c
right but i still got to go back to sch on sat to hand in my port folio
shall just go n hand in
look for my tutor
and study.
simplicity ; thats the way things should be
*****
9:00 AM
its 845 by the time when i woke up
great
lessons at 9
yawns.
gg to a poly clinic to get a mc
damn just rem tt i need to hand in my port folio todae
argh
fuck.
shall reach sch at 3 then. hand in n leave.
shall revise todae since im up
simplicity ; thats the way things should be
*****
Wednesday, March 10, 2004
7:36 PM
just got hm
damn tired
didnt slp well last night
was on e phone
man dramatic call.
god.
m was cryin n i dun noe wad to sae to mk her feel better
dun feel lk sayin anythin too.
said she was drunk n she just dialled my no.
wadever la one min talked properly e other min fuckin here n there.
argh
was in town with yf just now
god
heavy down pour
was lk a drenched chicken
its been a couple of daes since i last saw her online or even talked via msg.
wells...
so girl what u wanna see?
wanna see me get down on my knees
wanna hear me beggin baby pls
wanna hear me cryin for mercy
oh girl wish i knew yr world
i think im losin my head over u girl
think i shall cancel all my plans n b a good ger tml
stay at hm
:>
save money.
simplicity ; thats the way things should be
*****
Tuesday, March 09, 2004
11:12 PM
What Happened to the I Love Yous
The Hugs and Kisses and the Runday Views
What Happened to Me and You
simplicity ; thats the way things should be
*****
6:59 PM
just came back fr sch
not a bad dae. :>
didt go for accs lec though.
was feelin lazy.
shall read through econs n mbs ltr
am so lost man.
better buck up startin fr now.
haven been studyin
its time.
march le.
lala.
shall start after dinner.
say 8?
thankz tan n maine for mkin me better.
tan for sendin me tt song.
talkin to me..
will consider abt gg back.
maine thankz.am not e only idoit in this world
cos u r worse.
ha!
simplicity ; thats the way things should be
*****
Monday, March 08, 2004
9:41 PM
was feelin very sucky.
controllin my emotions
thought i was doin a good job till my frien send me a song...
title: heaven
with a little ger talkin to her dad
askin him how life is lk n stuffs...
most importantly.
reminds me of her...
kept tearing...
just kept flowing...
real sucky.
simplicity ; thats the way things should be
*****
8:20 PM
rain is pouring outside.
cats and dogs.
thats just how im feelin now...
feel kinda lost, directionless.
no replies from her.
guess she has her reasons..
got back my results
3 out for 4 papers tt is.
failed one.
econs.was damn unexpected.
thought i cld at least scrap through.
read through tutor just makred alot of them wrong
no marks given for diagrams.
scored an A for my ob though :>
quite happy
lots of people didnt do well for that.
eileen. i really want to hear from you.
simplicity ; thats the way things should be
*****
Sunday, March 07, 2004
3:07 PM
just finish revising e first chap for econs
not too bad
will continue in a while
guess shes busy..
no replies.
hope that we could meet up.
oh wells.
deleted mich's profile fr my friendster n msn
dun see a point in puttin it there
since we dun even acknowledge each others presence.
just find it immaterial.
not gonnna reply to the email too before it becomes perpetual.
dun see a need to explain myself or whatsoever.
back to studies...
to you: i miss you.
air supply-here i am.
Here I am playing with those memories again
And just when I thought time had set me free
Those thoughts of you keep taunting me
Holding you, a feeling I never outgrew
Though each and every part of me has tried
Only you can fill that space inside
So there's no sense pretending
My heart it's not mending
Just when I thought I was over you
And just when I thought I could stand on my own
Oh, baby those memories come crashing through
And I just can't go on without you
On my own I've tried to make the best of it alone
I've done everything I can to ease the pain
But only you can stop the rain
I just can't live without you
I miss everything about you
Just when I thought I was over you
And just when I thought I could stand on my own
Oh baby those memories come crashing through
And I just can't go on without
Go on without
It's just no good without you
Without you, without you, without you
Oh baby, those memories come crashing through
And I just can't go on without, you
simplicity ; thats the way things should be
*****
Saturday, March 06, 2004
8:42 PM
feelin all tied up inside.
read an email mich sent.
just screwed up my day more. feel lk gg for a drink but am trying to refrain myself for doin so. been drinkin quite a bit. got to take care.
feelin grouchy.
roars.
shall go out for a walk.
I love you
Baby I love you
You are my life
My happiest moments weren't complete
If you weren't by my side
You're my relation
In connection to the sun
With you next to me
There's no darkness I can't overcome
You are my raindrop
I am the sea
With you and God, who's my sunlight
I bloom and grow so beautifully
Baby, I'm so proud
So proud to be your girl
You make the confusion
Go all away
From this cold and messed up world
I am in love with you
You set me free
I can't do this thing
Called life without you here with me
Cause I'm Dangerously In Love with you
I'll never leave
Just keep lovin' me
The way I love you loving me
And I know you love me
Love me for who I am
Cause years before I became who I am
Baby you were my man
I know it ain't easy
Easy loving me
I appreciate the love and dedication
From you to me
Later on in my destiny
I see myself having your child
I see myself being your wife
And I see my whole future in your eyes
Thought of all my love for you
sometimes make me wanna cry
Realize all my blessings
I'm grateful
To have you by my side
Every time I see your face
My heart smiles
Every time it feels so good
It hurts sometimes
Created in this world
To love and to hold
To feel
To breathe
To love you
Dangerously in love
Can't do this thing
I love you , I love you, I love you
I'll never leave
Just keep on loving me
I'm in love with you
I can not do
I cannot do anything without you in my life
Holding me, kissing me, loving me
Dangerously
I love you
Dangerously in love
simplicity ; thats the way things should be
*****
11:47 AM
crazy night last night
apart fr seein mich n jerage that wrecked my mood
everythin is ok
party at whynot with a grp of friends
got to noe some knew people.
quite nice people i suppose.
night was mad
our table spent like 200 bucks and all.
from shots to waterfall.
and in e end?
von n hc got drunk. snores.
tuition ltr.
no idea where after tt
perhaps will just stay in e library n do some work!
get down to some real business.
simplicity ; thats the way things should be
*****
Friday, March 05, 2004
12:21 PM
good sleep
not a intruded one.
preparin now.gg out with tanya ltr
sure gonna crap our dae awae
shes leaving early for her cell grp n i will b all alone
just hit a spot n study
perhaps go for a drink or two before gg hm..
wells.
tuition tml
meetin amy after tt in sch library
shall b good n brush up tml.
till e evenin.
simplicity ; thats the way things should be
*****
Thursday, March 04, 2004
11:21 PM
been slackn ard nowadaes
everyhwere but not hm
doin everythin but not studyin
lost all e zest
just came back hm actually
didnt attend my lesson todae
cant afford to not go anymore if not sure kana warnin letter
well just one more damn mth to go.
everythins gonna be fine!
was out with tanya n her frien after our test
e test was good
was well prepared
smiles.
talked abt almost everythin under e sun
asked me why did i actually stopped gg to church
told her its a contradict for me to go
she said somethin tt striked me hard.
goes somethin lk yes it might b a sin but its greater a sin for me to actually not go. to just escape.
guess its true..
plan to get a story book soon..
saw e book on e shelf quite like the contents..
as i was sayin
was at tampines..
frien went bali thai to get some desserts.
went to adidas.
saw e blue top she got.
was just standin in front on it stonin
till my frien broke it. tol dme its too small for me.
snores.
of cos its not for me.
oh wells.
didnt want to msg her afraid tt i wld sae somethin im not supposed to..
so far..so good...
simplicity ; thats the way things should be
*****
Wednesday, March 03, 2004
10:59 PM
just got back home not long ago
honey was good
man.the moves.fly girl.total awesome.
comm skills.
gt back my essay results
not good..
thought of this song just now when i was revising...
I told you how I felt
I told you what it meant
But I still haven't changed your mind
I know that you're afraid,
You're frightened of the pain
But you can let down your guard
Cause when we run, we hide
We deny what's inside
What good is a heart, if you're not gonna use it?
What good is your love, if you're too scared to choose it?
If your heart is beating, then it's for a reason
If you're not even willing to start, what good is a heart?
Don't make the same mistake that people often make
And miss out on a chance for love
You've got to make your move, you've got to make it soon
Cuz you're dying inside
Cuz I'm a man, but I cry
I have fears, I won't lie
Come on baby, you know it
Girl anyone who looks can see that I'm right
There's a chance, we should take it
Or regret it for the rest of our lives
simplicity ; thats the way things should be
*****
12:39 AM
Cruel to the eye
I see the way he makes you smile
Cruel to the eye
Watching him hold what used to be mine
Why did I lie
Why did I wander where to fly
Ooh why
Ooh why
And I.........can't breathe easy
I cant sleep at night
Until your by my side
No I........can't breathe easy
I cant dream you had another dream without you lying next to me
There's no way
Crushed me inside
For every word that caused you to cry
Crushed me inside
I wont forget, no I wont baby I
Don't know why
(Don't know why)
I left the one I was looking to find
Ooh why
Ooh why
WHY
I.........can't breathe easy
I cant sleep at night
Until your by my side
No I........can't breathe easy
(Breathe easy)
I cant dream you had another dream without you lying next to me, there's no way
No I.........can't breathe easy
I cant dream you had another dream without you lying next to me, there's no way
Out of my mind
Nothing makes sense anymore
I want you back in my life
That's all I'm breathing for
Ooh I......................
Tell me why................
Ooh Tell me why
I cant dream you had another dream without you lying next to me, there's no way
no no no no no I................can't breathe easy
I cant sleep at night
Until your...by my side
Yeah
I...................Can't breathe easy
No I...
I can't dream you had another dream without you lying next to me, there's no way
There's no way
simplicity ; thats the way things should be
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12:21 AM
ok flash back
failed my test
really think i should have passed
was really depressed...hope that she wld b here to tell me shes fine.
its ok...things are over i noe.
lets see..
todae sch..nothin much happened.
talked to her in e night.
got e courage to click on her.
plucked upo e courage to tell her how i feel
but no avail
nevertheless really meant everythin i said.
from the i miss u to the gettin back
really want to though i noe othat chances are so slim
so so slim that i can sae perhaps none
after so long i have learnt to really really tk things easier
but by takin things easy doesnt mean that i can let her go
yes i noe that im e fool here
when she have already move on
why am i still stuck here.
no i dunno.
i really dun.
its just how i feel when im with her.
e feelin inside that i felt when she was near
but e pathetic feelin wen i noe i cant even hold her...
shall not talk so much abt it...
yes i am fine.
yes i am ....
simplicity ; thats the way things should be
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Monday, March 01, 2004
7:48 PM
thought that i could pass todae
was really not tt nervous
well prepared
and the person got to fail me with soem lame reasons
not enough accerleration n stuffs
the fuckin car didnt row back not even a bit or wadever
just wth.
this is not helpin at all
really wish tt eileen can be here right now
now.
to tell me that everythin is fine
like how she used to tell me
really missed her alot.
i still cant let go
n does she noe???
even if she noes...
guess its not within her control..
simplicity ; thats the way things should be
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